Love and Light

Kadalasan mahal lang natin ang mga tao, for the good side that we see- but how about if they introduce to use the dark that resides in them.

Paano pag nalaman mo yung kadiliman, hanggan saan ang iyong pagtanggap.

Over the years, eto yung natutunan ko- ano ba yung unconditional love?

I have lived in a Subdivision, premyadong eskwelahan, nabibili ko gusto ko, we have an extravagant na life, ni hindi ko alam mag luto ng tama, o mag saing ng tama ng kanin- In short, wala... wala akong alam sa realidad ng ibang tao and I had to undergo all of this changes sa lifestyle to open me up to the world for real acceptance.

Unti-unti nabubuksan sa akin kung ano yung mga nililihim ng mga tao sa sarili nila- natutunan ko tumanggap ng mga tao kahit ano ang trabaho nila...

I stopped condemning the prostitutes, yung mga pumapasok sa ganung trabaho, hindi lahat walanghiya- hindi lahat walang pangarap- may mga totoong tao.

I stopped condemning, in fact, kahit nga ang isang babaero, o palit ng palit ng asawa hindi mo pwede i judge- until you know their life- what they have been through- bakit nila ginagawa ito- we cannot take life literally.

Hindi ka pwede mag husga ng tao, kahit yung mga nalululong- kasi may mabigat silang dalahin- tayo yung unang una sa society na dapat nakakaunawa.

May mga tao na kailangan gumamit ng ibang tao to exist, to continue their dreams, and our concept of good and evil varies up to our perspective-- and nasa atin ang mag reflect at pag intindi.

Meron mga taong willing din magamit, dahil sa mga personal na rason- na sila lang ang nakakaunawa.

And this is seeing the darkness-- and laerning how to turn the negative into the positive.

I am at the stage of reflecting on my life, mga tao nakilala ko, mga lessons.

It has always been, na kahit anong trabaho ng tao, saan siya nangggaling, anong history niya- ano ginagawa niya up to the present time-- andun yung I see a glimmer of hope- every time.

And only redeeming love-- yung totoong pagtanggap ko din sa sarili ko ng Darkness na meron sa akin, mga sarili kong dumi, mga sarili kong kasinunggalingan- mga sarili kong kasalanan- yung pagtanggap ko at pag unawa- at pag bura ng pagmamalinis.

Doon na huhugasan ang aking kaluluwa....

It feels like an all consuming fire, you consume me 

My breathing becomes deeper at the mere sight of you

You are iridescent and we are free

Let us bask in this moment.

I think I dropped my brain somewhere
The more I gaze at you, the more things become cloudy
The sky is blue, so blue I get mesmerized.
These sensations are new to me---
So new I want to immerse in them.
You are connected to me
Since I opened a portal, a portion of what I wanted to be
I know you are an all consuming fire
You might kill me in an instant
But I don’t care.
In love, logic does not exist.
I will continue holding your hand, in the light…and even in the darkness

Wider understanding of Love: 

Noong mas bata, I kept on wondering why certain people have mistresses, or bakit merong kabit, bakit merong tao na lima o anim ang boyfriend o girlfriend.
And then you grow up, and you realize, na malawak nga pala ang salitang Love.
You cannot set a limit to how you understand things.
Bigla ko naalala, yung mga tao na I don't have any physical connection with, but have stayed in my heart - yung tsaa na ininom ko at sinag ng araw meron pa sa ala-ala ko.
Meron yung mga tao na, mahal mo but have no sexual attraction whatsoever.
They just mentally stimulate you, you walk in Session road and they can discuss life with you, and you end up satisfied and smiling.
In that specific moment, nag share ka ng love, nag share siya ng love, ng munting space.
There are lots of conversations like this, people that I love not on a physical plane but we are connected-- for that fraction of a second.
I don't know, magkakaiba tayo, pero simula nung ma realize ko mga ganitong bagay I just stopped judging whatever is happening.
Wala na akong taong gustong i-judge from whatever perspective they are in.
Madami dami akong tinatangap na klase ng unawa, attraction at love perspectives and cannot go back to any traditional ideas that I had.
I just know na bukod sa love has no gender-- I have lost the need to judge.
You see, how can you measure the exactness of love--- when there are certain occasions where in you can love someone so much, you don't own them,
And you can only have tea or coffee conversations with them, wala siyang pupuntahan na kahit saan sa direksyon ng relasyon, but they are living in my state of forever.
Love has no time boundaries, just fractions of light. Separated into shingles from time to time.

AN Invitation

by: Kali Alaia

Sipping my coffee slowly
Combinining the granules, tasting the sweetness of the sugar
Allowing the smoothness of the liquid to trickle down my throat
I let you linger over my tongue

I have been observing the mist hovering the glass
The hot water was poured and started blending
Here lies an invitation..an invitation to sip

From moment to moment, from glory to ecstasy
The form, the energy, the very best parts of you
I'd like to take in.

Let's not have long and winding conversations
For we are not built that way
Your flirtations make their way into my dazed and foggy mind
This afternoon is making me want to pick that brain of yours
the sudden stimulus that is called you

Don't you know that I suddenly became thirsty for more
More of something that is called the new--
You are something unusual good for my soul

Not a lot of people want to tell the truth nowadays
But one thing is for sure, the moments are honest
The sudden burst of the moment between us is true

We must not promise undying love for each other
For I don't believe we are built that way
But let us hold each other's hands, feel the brush of the sensation in each other's skin
Let us laugh, let the chemical last for as long as it can.
Be my wine, be my truth--

Let me sip you, let me linger...let me dance in that haze of yours
Let me break that impenetrable shield I have placed on myself
For a moment let me be human, let me feel my humanity with you

I want you, and yet we don't need each other
There is no need to guarantee nor ask forever
For we are already one and connected..traveling to eternity dont you see..
Because our souls have already merged from the point of contact

We have time, we have time...

I'd like to take my coffee slowly... mixing the granules bit by bit
Let me be your coffee, let me be the cream, let me be the butter, let me be.. just let me be.

And you shall be my coffee, be that certain kind of something..
For just a split second be mine, let souls intertwine...

For a moment let us breathe this oneness--for a split second be here...
Let us be here.